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be-oh-oh age-oh-oh

so, how long are you planning on being pissed? i’m just asking because,
you know, you make all these rare pronouncements about how long it’s
okay to be pissed and how it’s in your hands to change it or get out of
it and yet you’ve made no changes and here you are, still mad, still all frothy and outraged. the
exception proves the rule, sure, but when it’s your rule i don’t think
you also get to be the exception.

and it’s not like your anger is baseless so much, because i’m not
saying that, but that the base is so well established it seems like
you could be moving into some more complex emotions by now. or moving
on altogether, as this base of yours is already rich with the basics
and their over-dramatic adjectives: your hopeless despair, your fierce
indignation, your unwarranted fear; your overarching, salt-stained sorrow; and of course your unchained anger. really, get a look at yourself. if you can’t stop
running your own emotional gantlet could you at least introduce some
subtlety here and there for the other players? something like, oh, i
don’t know, speechless gratitude? see: you wouldn’t have to SAY anything,
you’d just have to, for variety, have a feeling that is not always about how
bad it is for you. or is that too much?

last week you said you’d lost interest in her because she was in the
habit of witty complaint, and now has nothing of substance to complain
about and yet somehow continues complaining, just in the absence of
wit. a valid judgement, i’m not saying it’s not. i’m saying: you were
never even witty. you are, to be frank, more than a little boring at
your best, when this is your game, the "woe is my middle name" game.

you can change it, you can change how you think about it, or you can
change your proximity to it. but really, shake yourself out of this.
somewhere inside you is a nice person: a good friend, a fun parent,
a solid partner. somewhere inside of you that person is choking. do
you like being this way? then please, if not for yourself, then for the
sake of my slagging patience, knock it off.

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    ozma

    This does not respond to the thrust of your post but I want to plea: Forgive us non-witty complainers or sometimes witty but not always witty.
    We complain for thee.

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